i have like, maybe 3-4 people here who i can talk to and maybe call them my friend, but we don’t really talk. i’m not talking about people who live abroad, i do have some friends, just not here in lithuania. i’m talking about the people who dare call themselves my friend and do nothing to prove that. 

yeah, i’m serious. maybe it’s just the people here idk

i mean
i don’t have anyone who i can talk to and who will understand irl; friends aren’t people who you get drunk with or whatever, i think friends should help you when you’re feeling down etc??? well my “friends” knew i was going to kill myself, and no one said one fucking word. they all saw i was self harming and starving, and no one said one fucking word. i keep trying to help people without asking anything in return and when i just need to simply talk to someone, no one listens, because they’re “more important”. that’s not friends.